Mommy got worked over today. My patience and composure were beaten to a pulp. It was one of those days, as trite as that expression may sound. One kid wouldn't nap in the morning. The other wouldn't nap in the afternoon. No naps equals crabby command central (on all of our parts). I started the day tired and never got a rest. And that's rough because in the world of motherhood, no kid is ever gonna say, "Gosh mom. You must be pretty wiped. Why don't you take a break and I'll just make myself lunch?"
We're out of Splenda -- I couldn't figure out the coffee-to-milk-to-sugar ratio and never got caffeine in my system. A chewed up cap on a sippy cup meant water was dripping through my leather purse and dying my white dress a shade of red. You're probably wondering why any mother of a three and one year old is wearing white, and here's the answer: you can bleach the hell out of it. But that doesn't do any good when it looks like you have a giant period stain and you're walking through the grocery store. And Charlie woke up with a cold -- he's a drippy, gooey, fussy-but-sweet bundle of something special today.
I feel lingering shame that I actually raised my voice at least three times. Quite loudly. I may have even clapped my hands for effect. In my old job, I got a performance rating at the end of the quarter. Today may have brought down my average a little, but all I can do is forgive myself, remember that I'm human and do better tomorrow. Much better.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
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I think you are a fabulous mother. And, even on your worst day I'm pretty sure that you're better than most mom's on their best day. Whenever I'm about to have my own meltdown (i.e. Kai just threw something at my head and has been screaming for an hour) I think of you and say "no thank you"... :)
Oh, Meg (one of the very best mothers I know, bar none). You are the inspiration for the rest of us! Truly, when I feel myself going crazy, I think of how well you handle the kiddie chaos and try to channel some of your grace under pressure. And I'm not proud of the voice-raising/hand-clapping that I do either, but they have made an appearance in my house a number of times. Funny how that clap gets the attention, right? :) I try to be honest and tell my kids that I'm sorry for making the loud noises, but I was feeling a little frustrated. Then we hug it out. Being a mom is tough work! But as you said, we are human and we make mistakes. And that's OK. Enjoy a new sunny day tomorrow! Love ya!
Meg, Meg, Meg.... this post was laugh out loud funny and oh so relatable! Bless your sweet patient heart! It is so obvious and easy to see the love that oozes from your soul in all that you do to take care of your family. Don't think about how you feel you may have lost it a time or two today today for another second. Charlie and Madeline forgave you a long long time ago, we would be robots if we didn't have harry days. Tomorrow is a new day, we all thank God for it!
Keep on Rockin Little Mama!
Thank you so much for the encouragement, girls! I'm so lucky to have friends who are such amazing moms and who I never stop learning from (I think that's supposed to be "whom" but doesn't that sound old fashioned?). Love you guys!
Megs, you and Rob are both such wonderful parents to Miss Mads and Charlie. No matter what, you know they will always look back at you with those beautiful eyes and sweet cheeks, hoping for a tickly hug or a kiss. Keep up the fantastic work!! :)
Oh Meg! You are SUCH a great mom. I'd like all of the blog world to know that your daughter recently told me, "No thank you" totally on her own! I caught myself telling Marin the other day, "Mommy is doing the BEST. SHE. CAN!" Then I felt horrible about it too. Like you say, tomorrow is a new day. :) xo
Oh my goodness Meg! I am constantly amazed how hard staying at home full time with 2 kids can be. I used to keep 30 high school kids in control all day long even sometimes using Bunsen burners in science experiments! I always wonder how a 3 yr. old and 5 mo.old can send me over the edge! Love your post. You are great and hang in there!
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